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I've been feeling a bit lonely and detached, like I do have two bestfriends, it's just that they prefer each other's company over mine. And I have another frien

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@tinypeacock727911 · Jan 12, 2026

A letter to my ex. (That she'll never read)

This is a letter to my ex she’ll never read.
Dear Ex,
It’s been close to 4 years since we broke up and 3 years since we last spoke. A lot has happened in that time. And even though it’s been that long. There still hasn’t been a day where you didn’t pop into my head at a random time. At first this really frustrated me, and to be honest it still does from time to time, but through therapy and other means I’ve come to accept that you’ll be floating around for a while. And even if you don’t that’s fine too. Like I said, a lot has happened in those years since we broke up. And even though you’ll never read this, I couldn’t stop thinking that this is the thing I still need to do to completely get over you. I saw a TikTok yesterday about how the brain brings back old trauma when it senses that you, as a person, are strong enough to deal with it. Now I’ve never avoided dealing with the breakup, at least consciously, however there are still things I catch myself doing. For instance, talking to a fake version of you like we were having a real conversation. Me filling in the blanks of your part with what I think you’d say and respond. I want this to stop, because quite frankly it isn’t health

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@blacklion900609 · Jan 12, 2026 12:40 am

i feel like i deserve a thanks for living alone for four years at 11 years old.

when i was about ten my grandmother got extremely ill and nobody else could look after her but my mother who is a single mother and unfortunately i have no siblings so my options either were i go down my grandmother house everyday when her whole house was falling apart, it was constantly so cold you could see your own breath and be alone because my mothers full attention would be on my grandmother or be home alone in my own house that isnt falling apart and isnt cold.
eleven year old me ended up deciding to just be completely home alone because i didnt really have any other option. being home alone lasted just until i turned 15 because thats when my grandmother passed away. i never really got a thanks for being home alone for almost every single day from the age of eleven when i feel i shoudve to some extent.
it was everyday i was alone. i have no siblings or father who could keep me company. my mother would leave for work around 8-9am and then come home around 8pm but by then she would be exhausted from working and looking after my grandmother that she would go straight to bed because she was also ill with dizzy spells. so for me it felt like i was constantly home alone.
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